Went to Dbl 0 for Platfrom 6 yesterday. It was fab-u-lo-so! =DDDD. Saw someone from the past. Hrmm... Anyway, Work was so boring today. I hate that hantu gigi at my workplace. Sucks man. Oke! Picchas!

Taufik and syed azmir @ Platform 6.


Azmir drinking water. Hahaha.


Grrr.


Actually, I'm lazy to type long2 you know... Heheheheheheheheehehehehee. =)))))
C ya!
Day 02, I'm missing you.

Today is the boyfriend's NS day. I miss him so much even if I'm always pissed off with him.
Look at the profile man! Hopeless Romantic! Haizz.. He'll be out on 5th of may, damn long. Wonder what he's doing now. I wish I was there to accompany him.

School was so boring. I hate that shaver-teacher of mine. Once he looks down on you, forever it will be. Never trusts people he looked down on. He thinks it's fun to keep on paying for stuff. YOU ASKED ME TO BUY, I PAID AND YOU NEVER EVEN USED THE DAMN BOOK!. A total waste of my money. Why teachers like these even exist in Singapore...

Someone wrote my friggin number on the whiteboard! Luckily, the last 4 digits were wrong. My name was spelled wrong too. Haha. Don't think I don't know who you are. Dumbfcuk.

I failed my maths test again. I got 2 and a half for the first test. And 2 and a half AGAIN for the retest. If I'd knew I'd fail the stupid test, I wouldn't have taken it. Waste time.

I totally lost my mood being in school.
fuckedoma~!

And I got a plaque from NPCC. Hahaahaha. My first ever medal/plaque for 15 years. -_-"


Note to self; I miss you terribly.

What did I ever do to deserve this life?
Why are you tearing me apart?
Why didn't you ever care?
Why am I surrounded by thorns?
Why am I not saved?
Why can't I forget this sadness?
Why did I ever come back?
Why can't the heartbreaking stop?
Why can't I just listen to my friends?
Why am I still here with you?
Where are you taking my heart to?
Why am I feeling this anger inside?
Why am I so stupid?
Why can't I be happy like anybody else?

Can you please help me? Help me bring back my life. I feel as of no use to be by your side. I'm feeling so down everyday. I am not faking anything. I can't forget about my sadness. I can't simply cry in front of you because it's your weakness. You would also get so mad when I do that, I don't understand why.

I've tried so hard to make you happy. Can't you see the change? Do you think I like to say anything bad about you? I feel so insecure. Even though I'm with you, I still feel so alone. We've together for almost a year now, don't you think it's waste if I always wanted a break up? Can't you just be supportive? Why must you always accuse me of not having time for you? Why must we end up like this?



I'm always there for you when you fall.



But what about me?...



Where have you been?...

Actually I'm too lazy to update now. Anyways, first stop, I'VE ALREADY CHANGE MY BLOG ADD! =D. Haha. Lame.

I really wonder what makes someone to fall for you again after a break up. Worst, he's the one who asked for it. Reason being, not ready yet. Then why bother? I'm attached for almost a year now. I hope you understand. Fida told me that he has been single for 3 years after me. He tried looking for a replacement but no result. That, I could not believe. My most embarassing suprise was that he suddenly escorted me to school this morning! I was like, what the hell are you doing here??! And he was like totally malu and all. His course (ITE Balestier) starts at 12.30pm. And it was about 7.25am that morning! He also told me that he wanted to renew his passport. But still, what the hell are you doing here so early in the morning?!? Escorting me to school??!!! Fida also told me that he has been wanting to meet up. He would call me but I refuse to answer due to some reason. When I saw him and the situation, it was like, gees, it's been like bloody 3 years man. He also knew about my current relationship and the work-studies collision problem. Fida nye keje uh nie. And he wanted to patch things up with me. But I'm truly sorry, even though my current boyfriend can sometimes be a jerk, I'm still attached to him. So, I hope you respect my decision.

Seriously the boyfriend is getting on my nerves. We were happily talking then suddenly he changed his tone when I said he was like drama-ish. I said I was sorry and I was purely joking. He started to change his mood throughout the conversation. And I was like, ................ . Atleast, I am trying my best to communicate with him, bring out topics to talk about. Rather than wasting my time and money just to keep quiet on the phone. I might as well fly a kite in the rain and die =))))).

My boyfriend sometimes be the girlfriend instead of himself. And sometimes, I have to be the boyfriend. I am the one giving him advices, cheering him up and stuff. While he would just keep quiet and store it all up inside and refuses to share his problems. Then what's the use of me being here for you?
I really wonder.

My workplace's management sucks. Especially one of the managers (name disclosed). Perverted and has no sense of respect for his wife. Flirts around and stuff. Stupid fella. Tak sedar diri. Sometimes he would just hold my hands and I would brush it off. ARE YOU REALLY A MANAGER???! Fcuking hell I'm damn pissed off as there are eyes around watching man! Can you see I hate you! I even told you to stay far away from me! Fuck you deaf or what? knn ccb.

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